hate myself..

i hate myself somtimes..
just a simple decision can take me ages to decide..
i know this kind of personality do drive everyone crazy..
i've tried to overcome it but it still doesn't work that way..
maybe i really think too much,consider too much of things and end up getting nothing. *sighs*

i got lots of things to say..
buried in the heart makes me feel like bursting..
but so what? who cares..
somehow i'm the one who did wrong or what..
i don't really have the guts to apologize or whatever..
i'm struggling in between..should or should not..don't have any guide in direction..
wondering what's happening next..
i just hope that i can get rid of this kind of feeling fast..
feeling so breathless..

holidays gonna end very soon..
i really hope that i can fully use this time..
to study,to gain,to realise,to be independent or perharps to get rid of the stupid feelings =S