holidays..

nothing special for this one week holidays but in fact i gain many experience and realise many things..
life's simple at home with sis..
never experience home alone before so it's quite challenging though..
everything is on my own and just stay all day long at home coz i dun dare to drive T.T

luckily it's ended now..
and i cant really believe that can stay with sis so long time without any quarrels or what..
haha..maybe we need support from each other and i really appreciate that..
thanks sis,love you ♥

hate myself..

i hate myself somtimes..
just a simple decision can take me ages to decide..
i know this kind of personality do drive everyone crazy..
i've tried to overcome it but it still doesn't work that way..
maybe i really think too much,consider too much of things and end up getting nothing. *sighs*

i got lots of things to say..
buried in the heart makes me feel like bursting..
but so what? who cares..
somehow i'm the one who did wrong or what..
i don't really have the guts to apologize or whatever..
i'm struggling in between..should or should not..don't have any guide in direction..
wondering what's happening next..
i just hope that i can get rid of this kind of feeling fast..
feeling so breathless..

holidays gonna end very soon..
i really hope that i can fully use this time..
to study,to gain,to realise,to be independent or perharps to get rid of the stupid feelings =S